I cant wait for my ns to finish, even tho im nt even 1 year into it. i just dont quite like army life. too many rules and regulations that i have to follow. And the fact that i have to sacrifice my civilian life for 2 years. some may say 2 years is nt a long time, but, every single min in camp is like hell. the daily strenuous trainings, marching, ''jumping jacks'', push ups and everything is driving me nuts. The process you have to go through every day is simply torturing. being an infantry man is never easy. the process that leads to it is simply tiring.

3 more hrs before i book in for camp. ive been trying to spend my off days doing something i miss doing while in camp like watching tv, playing games, hanging out and stuffs.. but i ended up not having enuff time to do it. it just sucks. i cant wait for bmt to end and i have the thought of asking for a post-out. get something like an 8-5 thingy. And yar, the best part is, Temasek polytechnic offer letter came to me after i have been enlisted for ns. geez! such a waste!

To farhana friend, i really hope things will eventually turn out well for you. i apologise but i cant seem to help you find a solution to your problem. he's just too complicated. im nt trying to make him look so bad though. its the way i look at the whole picture.

Hurt is the word to sum up everything. helping others when you yourself know you're helpless. its something kinda complicated. there's so much pain to bear seeing someone else happy when you know you crave for that too.

gosh! i sound so emo now..i'll stop for now.. =)

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yeah, there's a pretty obvious difference between the 2 pictures. besides the hair.. its my skin colour. its getting darker and darker. dang! its all due to the trainings under the scorching heat. i must say, the weather has been pretty weird this past few weeks. little rain and lots of heat.

oh wells, to summarise everything, army life is something of an eye-opening thingy. Not really splendid, but not really bad either. it depends on how u see things.. Trainings, marchings, running and etc, is something u'll get almost everyday in camp. something ive gotten used to. there's also ups and downs in a short space of 3 weeks. you gotta be physically and mentally prepared to go in. which i wasnt initially. im slowly building that up. with the help of my platoon mates, sergeants and my Commando Encik. so weird to see a Commando leading a batch of infantry men.

Something i really miss now is my civilian life. oh wells, its only 2 years.