i miss aceh.. its almost a year since we left aceh.. i really miss that place.. it taught me alot of things abt life there.. ive learnt to appreciate life more.. :)

we always like to rewind the best part....
we never really like to press the ''play'' button
the fact is, we never really moved on...
in fact, we're scared to move on..

we always tell ourselves..
''im so over him/her''
but inside, we know, it's never true..
we keep playing back all the memories
the past...
even when we're with someone else

and the cause from all these things..
we hurt others..
incidentally, coincidentally or even on purpose
we never really realised..
with it,
we brought together lies and made up stories
pretending or even trying to love the other person.

But we know, we will never succeed
cause deep down, we realise..
we never really moved on..

sorry seems to be the hardest words...

~Farhan Superman~

Ive lost interest in almost everything....

Things like:

1) Having Special Relationships -> basically to fall in love
2) Reading books
3) Watching TV
4) On the phone for hours and hours
5) MSN-ing

So yeah.. to sum up everything.. ive lost everything which seems interesting to me in the past... Expect a different Farhan to appear this coming weeks, months or even years.. until i get over all the points mentioned above....Lets bring back the old Farhan.. to be honest, i was a very nasty person in the past..sometimes it doesnt pay to be nice and kind..well, thts it.. ;)


Shima, my gum gum... Ure missed rite now by Farhan Superman =) and my best buddy too Liyana.. miss u bestie.. =)

Blogging has become something important for me nowadays.. I just have the urge now to update my blog entries like once every two days. hehs. Its different from before where i would update it like once every 2 mths..

Woke up this morning in the middle of dream which is coming to a climax. Thanks mum. Its no dirty dreams .. I dreamnt about my ex in secondary school.. yeah.hehs. It goes like this... I came back to my secondary school to get some stuffs.. Then, suddenly i saw this familiar sight, crying. As i look closely, its my ex.. she was crying.. i didnt noe for what reason though. She was juz about to tell me when this happens ''Farhan!! wake up!!'' i went like omigosh! hahah.. cant you like wait mummy?? In that dream, she was about to hug me u noe..haha.. you shudnt have stopped that from happening mom.. Anti-climax sehh.. how i wished i noe the ending to it...

Oh well..enough said. im going out later to submit my application for a part-time job at Sentosa. im applying for the Luge Skyride job as an operator.. how cool if i can get that job. Dont mind the distance as long as the pay is good and the working days are flexible. Hope i do get the job.. if nt, i have to settle for jobs i might not like... :[

And yar, to that someone involved in ur drama thingy, good luck for this friday aite.. I try and make it if i can. No promises ok.. have to look into my schedule. :]

it has all turned to nothing..
history repeats itself over and over again.
sick and tired of it.
miracles don't happen..
its just a myth..

in the midst of giving up..

well...
lets just end this.....

Life can be hard on you sometimes.. or maybe every time. Life is never a bed of roses.. The world is full of hate, anger,deceit, hypocrisy and the list goes on and on... sometimes i sit back and think.. why is people created to have that kind of feelings? Why would a human being want to hurt others, when they dun have anything that they can boast about. Humans are all the same... they're small in the eyes of the creator.. yet, they feel they own the world.. as the years goes on.. as the world gets even more technologically advanced, humans forget their roots.. its really a sad thing.. And as humans become more intelligent, they get stupid each day.. They can brag about their intelligence to people, yet when it comes to the smallest of things, they forgot and incidentally, it showed their stupidity..

~Comes to think of it, i smiled... life can also be stupid sometimes~

todae was greatttt.. simply great!!.. soccer at St Wilfred is definitely grrrreeaattt.. the field u shud really consider if u wanna play soccer..the artificial turf makes u in the mood for a real kick around. Looking forward for more soccer outings at St wilfred... gonna make this a monthly thing.

Aite back at home, things are back to normal. bored as usual.. watched the movie over the hedge yesterday.. ( im outdated i must say) the movie rocks man.. its cute and the whole story line is good. for those who has not checked out the movie... u really shud. blood diamond is next.. if i haf time, i'll go watch it..

So fridae is the day that im gonna go find work. Hopefully its a success coz i dun wanna spent the rest of the mth rotting at home.. thts bullshit.. sitting at home and doing nothing is not my thing..

Its kinda bored going online tonite.. only if that naza was here.. hey girl... ure greatly missed by Farhan Superman u noe.. heeess. 3 things i really missed at this point in time:

1) My best buddy Liyana
2) The super crazy/super sweet Nazaa
3) ITE College East Sport Management..

till then....

ok here is my new skin... thanks to nazaaa.. must give credit.. aniwaes, im nt quite sure why the posts are all gone.. but its better.. so pple who juz found out abt my blog wont noe my past histories..hahaha.. i love this new skin.. thaaanks sweets.. im gonna posts more soon :)

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

ok due to some problems signing in to blogger.com.. i wasn't able to update my entries. im glad todae's fine..i can oreadi update my blog

Well, ive been feeling sooo heavy nowadays.. because of the fact that i ate alot. i can eat up to 3-4 meals a day. My friend reminded me of this saying '' if ure eating alot, means ure happy.. really really happy''... i dunnoe whether i shud believe that but i tink its true lor.. ive been feeling very happy for the last couple of weeks..

aite so yesterdae went out wif the lovely nazaratul farhana..hehh. decided to accompany her to send her creative mp3 player for servicing. after sending that mp3 of hers for servicing, we decided to go food-hunting coz she was damn hungry. she wanted to eat at cavana sooo badly. but i tink its juz not her day.. we went round and round the mall and we cant find the eating place. we ended up eating at one of the food junction at marina.. it was a cool place though.. nice view of the esplanade.. so basically we juz walked round and round there and suntec. i got myself a new SUPERMAN tee..haha.. i love it.. sorry eh naz i dragged u all the way dere juz to get that t-shirt.. hees.. well, after all dat, went back to tampines where i had to sent her to work.

well, yesterday on a whole was a greaaatttt and splendid day! i had a nice time... hoping for more outings wif that girl... rite?? hee..

aite till den... =)