Wednesday, February 07, 2007 @ 9:56 PM
Hasnt been updating my blog for the past few weeks as i was busyyy and was recently hospitalised for four Freaking dayssss.. yess the most boring 4 days of my entire 18 years living in this beautiful world...hehs. Basically the doctors told me i had a small hole in my lungs.. surprise surprise!! its trueee.. i have a le in my lungss. whoooohooo! and the best part is, the doctors didnt noe wats the cause.. kudos to them.. hahah.. and yarh, i dun smoke.. never touched a single cigarette before.. but yet the hole is there.. how ironic... well, i just take this as a test from god... i wont get too stressed up wif this.. even if one day the doctors gonna tell me im nt gonna have much time, i will still carry on wif life as usual.. Life is tooo beautiful to give up.. and everybody will die.. its juz a matter of when its gonna happen. I hope future xrays dat i will be going thru will bring positive results... Lately, been doing lots and lots of thinking... why must people hurt other people??. be it hurting their feelings, hurt them physically or even for dat matter, take their lives awayy... arent this world created for mankind to live happily? haiz~ sometimes people are juz so so selfishhh to the extent of hurting other people... for them, hurting people is like having their daily meal... something they cannot miss.. the world is beautiful, yet cruel.. i had my share of hurt tooo ... loads and loads of negative experiencessssss... sometimes i wanted to give up in lifee.. lots and lots of time...bt i was fortunate, i didnt let my emotions control meee.. and also im really2 grateful for all the people that was by my side when i was really down.. like my bestie Liyana... even tho we had issues in the past, bt i tink thts part n parcel of frenship.. cant imagine how life wud be like without herr..Well, what wud you do or how wud you feel if u juz manage to get over someone whom you really love, then u met someone that managed to make u fall for her den hurt ur feelings...haish~ its the most fucked up feeling one cud hav... after 2 bloody years of pain and hurt trying to get over someone in ur past, ure hurt again and again....she came, made a mark on ur life, den walk out on you... it really speak volumes abt tht particular person... Ws i rushing her? was i demanding too much from her? its a big NO NO! and how do u explain it when they say, they hate their ex for wat they have done.... nt gonna contact him anymore... gonna hate him bla bla bla bla bla.... and now ure back wif that person... why must u even have the thought of lying.. dont lie to urself if u tink that u cant lie to the others... at least, make it sound realistic.. haiyoooo... wont mention names.... go figurehaizz~ u left me dead... really.. *lost for words*
tis' the way
Reach my prismic soul.
Known As Muhammad Farhan bin Safaruan
More known as Farhan Superman. hehe
19 going 20 this year :)
Single but not available :P
Currently Serving National service with the Army -__-