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Saturday, November 03, 2007 @ 11:27 AM

This picture is taken during my trip to aceh. I tried to capture the picture of the sun setting. i guess i failed. this is my best attempt at taking a shot. Oh wells, it doesnt matter aniway.

I like to start my blog entry with a picture eh? ever realised that? i guess so. its so bland without any photo. Photos do cheer up things quite abit. :)

So lets start. Its a nice one week break from camp for me. I feel so exhausted right now. Ns has really drained everything thats in me. It's tough being a rifleman. During the training phase i mean. i really hope when we turn operationally ready, there will be less training and more rest.

But sitting at home is equally torturing. Things keep bugging me. i wouldnt say its a problem for me lah. The way i look at it, is more of a nuisance to me. Pathetic and sometimes childish. Its hard to understand what humans have up on the minds. We're definitely the most difficult creatures to understand. Same goes for me too. I dont understand myself sometimes. One minute you want this, the other minute, u decided to change your mind. maybe god created us in such manner to make us more interesting? haha. ok thats so random. Ive decided to ignore the person who decided to make himself a nuisance and somehow reveal his stupidity and childishness. Why shud we even bother lah kans. Grow up kid. I speak from my mind and i dont like bottling things up.

The fourth part is directed at you.

And yes yes.
To you Aisyah, im missing you alot =)

11:26 AM

Kaer-Izinku Pergi

Thursday, September 06, 2007 @ 9:34 AM

She's gorgeous ain't she? :) oh wells, she's Vanessa Hudgens from the High School Musical thingy. So yeah.

Aite, yesterday was the 16km route march. the next stage after the 12km route march. It was a test of physical and mental endurance. i admit i almost lost the battle, but i guess with the support from the rest, we managed to pull through to complete it. Next up will be the field camp- which is tomorow, followed finally by the peak of everything.. the 24km route march. POP is just 9 days away.. yey yey!! :P i really hope i can pull through this final stretch of the BMT phase.

So i think thats about it for now. im too tired to type more. ok bye!

Sunday, August 19, 2007 @ 5:48 PM

im really counting down to the days of my passing out parade. exactly 27 more days before that day. Approximately 4 more weeks of BMT. How time flies... It seems like just yesterday i was just being enlisted for the army. And i cant wait for it to end. When it ends, i am no longer a recruit. I'll be called Private Farhan. It sounds better than recruit.

For the last couple of months, life there has been full of ups and downs. I can never run away from frustrations, anger,blood,sweat and the feeling of happiness when i was able to accomplish something i never knew i could. I always mentioned how i hated army life.. but on the other side, it taught me lots of things too. Before this, i never knew where my limit is, but army life taught me to push my limits. And till now, i know.. ive not yet reached my limits. ok it sounds complicating.. :P

Well, i just did my 12 km route march,with full battle order. which means with the ''oh-so-heavy'' field pack, rifle and the Load-bearing vest. Not forgetting the helmet, boots and ur own body weight. It was really2 torturous . I have to focus on lots of stuff. The leg movement, constant changing of rifle slinging, the field pack and stuff. I wonder how 24 km would be like. I wonder if i will have any legs left.haha.

And yes yes, i just miss civilian life. Doing things i used to do like watching tv for hours and hours. But now, the daily routine is, PT everyday..Sian lehh.. but wat to do.. as the saying goes, ''Lan Lan have to serve mahh''.. means, no choice but have to serve..

ok i think thtts all for now. oh yes, i miss all my friends. we shall hang out sooner or later.. haha.

tis' the way